Aggravation

So my happiness continues. Green bay won the Superbowl WOOT!!!
And we are cleaning the new condo so we can move soon, I'm getting excited about it. It will be nice for us to share our space and be around each other all the time. I can cook tasty dinner decorate and stuff. Oh yea and save a lot of money because my bills will be cut in half pretty much. Awesome.

Only thing bugging me at this moment. His ex. She calls. Every. Fucking. Day.
I understand that he wants to stay friends with her and well I think he mostly talks to her just to be nice because she is still all upset about him and I being together. Well too bad for her. She fucked things up with him a long time ago and if she wanted to fix it she should have. I know I shouldn't be mean but her incessant calling pisses me off. If she called like once a day I can deal with that. But if he doesn't answer she calls like 5 times. I don't even call him that much if he doesn't answer. She acts like he is still obligated to treat her a certain way or something but either way I hate it. And she will fish for compliments. Fucking women. HATE THEM. I don't even do things like that. Ugh. It's not that I am jealous I suppose it's just that I know how girls work for the most part and she is clearly not over him even though it's been over a year. She needs to move on, the best way to do that is for her to take time for herself and not talk to him. You can be friends with your ex, I have no problem with that but I don't even talk to my best friend Talicia everyday on the phone. Maybe once a week or a few text messages. That's all she really needs. Once a week a phone call should be good. It's unhealthy for her to keep calling him this much. I suppose part of it is his fault because I'm sure he hasn't asked her to stop but I know he doesn't want to hurt her feelings. And she easily gets hurt.
I should probably address this issue with him but I will let it go a little longer and see if she backs off after we move or maybe he will say something to her or stop returning her calls who knows. Anyways I'm trying to be a god girl and play nice. My horoscope told me to be careful with my temper today so that's why I'm writing in here instead of raging out and sending her an angry message on facebook. Which I will do if I have to at some point. I will do whatever I have to do to protect and take good care of our relationship. I want this to work more than anything else.


Last words for the day before I get high so I can sleep and not worry about this...
To self: It's ok, you can get through this. Things will work out in your favor. Try to relax and act calm and rationally when speaking with others. Anger will get you no where.

Kim ( The ex ) : You need to back off and stop calling so much, I'm sure you are a sweet girl but you are really over stepping the friend boundaries with Jeff. He's not yours anymore, let go. Because I hate to say it but if you don't back off things are going to get ugly. I don't play nice when I'm mad.

Jeff : I love you and trust you with all my heart, I don't want to hate her I really don't. But her constant calling really upsets me.


I really hope my feelings on this are normal and not out of line. I don't get mad or possessive often but I feel like my toes are being stepped on :(

Happiness

Have I found it?
It's been a long time since I posted. Mostly because I only post when I am upset or confused and such. I noticed someone is actually checking my blog. Funny because I haven't even checked this blog in a while. Too busy with my picture takings to bother with this one. I guess I don't really have to much to write about other than that things are going good with Jeff and I, just hoping and praying they stay that way. I feel like things are going to stay this way and I'm glad 2010 is over because it was the hardest year of my life. This year should bring good new things and so far it has. I'm happy with the way things are between him and I, sometimes I do wonder though because we have never really talked about the state of our relationship. Like everyone assumes we are together as in a couple, and if they don't they ask. I don't know what to tell them, I feel like he is my boyfriend, I have no interest in any other people and as far as I know neither does he. We act like a couple, do everything together, are super attracted to each other and have great sex. Everything that a good relationship needs we have. Trust, love, communication and patience. I guess we don't have to call it anything but I guess I just want to make it official or I need to hear that he loves me and wants to be with me. Ugh I hate being a girl and having feeling and emotions sometimes. So I guess I am generally happy I just think I would be happier if we made it official or something y'know?
I asked me if I wanted to move in with him to the condo he owns. I like the idea, I would save a lot of money and it would make life easier for the both of us. I just LOVE my apartment and my independence. It's not like I need to live alone or anything and besides he is always over anyways, we spend all our time together. Maybe us not making it official is holding me back from wanting to move too. The more I think about things the more comfortable I am with the idea of moving. It's just such a big step and I just need to know if he is willing and ready to make that kind of commitment to me and us. We wanted to move in together like way back when I first got this place but it was way too soon then. I'm glad we waited because I learned so much about myself last year and I think I may be ready to make that kind of commitment.
It's not like we are getting married or anything it's just that our relationship would get a lot more serious. At the end of the day I just don't want to fuck things up. I want us to be happy like this forever lol oh I am cheesy.....