Have I found it?
It's been a long time since I posted. Mostly because I only post when I am upset or confused and such. I noticed someone is actually checking my blog. Funny because I haven't even checked this blog in a while. Too busy with my picture takings to bother with this one. I guess I don't really have to much to write about other than that things are going good with Jeff and I, just hoping and praying they stay that way. I feel like things are going to stay this way and I'm glad 2010 is over because it was the hardest year of my life. This year should bring good new things and so far it has. I'm happy with the way things are between him and I, sometimes I do wonder though because we have never really talked about the state of our relationship. Like everyone assumes we are together as in a couple, and if they don't they ask. I don't know what to tell them, I feel like he is my boyfriend, I have no interest in any other people and as far as I know neither does he. We act like a couple, do everything together, are super attracted to each other and have great sex. Everything that a good relationship needs we have. Trust, love, communication and patience. I guess we don't have to call it anything but I guess I just want to make it official or I need to hear that he loves me and wants to be with me. Ugh I hate being a girl and having feeling and emotions sometimes. So I guess I am generally happy I just think I would be happier if we made it official or something y'know?
I asked me if I wanted to move in with him to the condo he owns. I like the idea, I would save a lot of money and it would make life easier for the both of us. I just LOVE my apartment and my independence. It's not like I need to live alone or anything and besides he is always over anyways, we spend all our time together. Maybe us not making it official is holding me back from wanting to move too. The more I think about things the more comfortable I am with the idea of moving. It's just such a big step and I just need to know if he is willing and ready to make that kind of commitment to me and us. We wanted to move in together like way back when I first got this place but it was way too soon then. I'm glad we waited because I learned so much about myself last year and I think I may be ready to make that kind of commitment.
It's not like we are getting married or anything it's just that our relationship would get a lot more serious. At the end of the day I just don't want to fuck things up. I want us to be happy like this forever lol oh I am cheesy.....
It's been a long time since I posted. Mostly because I only post when I am upset or confused and such. I noticed someone is actually checking my blog. Funny because I haven't even checked this blog in a while. Too busy with my picture takings to bother with this one. I guess I don't really have to much to write about other than that things are going good with Jeff and I, just hoping and praying they stay that way. I feel like things are going to stay this way and I'm glad 2010 is over because it was the hardest year of my life. This year should bring good new things and so far it has. I'm happy with the way things are between him and I, sometimes I do wonder though because we have never really talked about the state of our relationship. Like everyone assumes we are together as in a couple, and if they don't they ask. I don't know what to tell them, I feel like he is my boyfriend, I have no interest in any other people and as far as I know neither does he. We act like a couple, do everything together, are super attracted to each other and have great sex. Everything that a good relationship needs we have. Trust, love, communication and patience. I guess we don't have to call it anything but I guess I just want to make it official or I need to hear that he loves me and wants to be with me. Ugh I hate being a girl and having feeling and emotions sometimes. So I guess I am generally happy I just think I would be happier if we made it official or something y'know?
I asked me if I wanted to move in with him to the condo he owns. I like the idea, I would save a lot of money and it would make life easier for the both of us. I just LOVE my apartment and my independence. It's not like I need to live alone or anything and besides he is always over anyways, we spend all our time together. Maybe us not making it official is holding me back from wanting to move too. The more I think about things the more comfortable I am with the idea of moving. It's just such a big step and I just need to know if he is willing and ready to make that kind of commitment to me and us. We wanted to move in together like way back when I first got this place but it was way too soon then. I'm glad we waited because I learned so much about myself last year and I think I may be ready to make that kind of commitment.
It's not like we are getting married or anything it's just that our relationship would get a lot more serious. At the end of the day I just don't want to fuck things up. I want us to be happy like this forever lol oh I am cheesy.....
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