Questions.

Things I wonder about.
Am I'm crazy, weird and girly?
It's only been  4 days since my last heartfelt post and I am starting to feel different already. I'm starting to question my feelings for Jeff or if I even had them in the first place. I love Jeff I know I do but I'm starting to think it's just that very close family type love and now what I thought it was. Or if it is what I thought it was why am I doing so well all of a sudden.

For the purpose of trying to just see other people I created a plenty of fish account. Talked to some people a bit no big deal. Except one of the guys actually wants to talk to me so I start texting him. Then he starts calling and I'm still a little skeptical because I just don't know, so I talk to him a bit. Then we went out for coffee last night for a bit and talked and what not. He is very nice, laid back and likes a lot of the same things I do. Only thing is he is obsessed with transformers. I can see that being a problem but anyways my point is just that how do I go from what I thought was my only love to actually thinking about liking and dating another guy? Am I just trading one in for the other? Or do I legitimately like this person? Can I actually like this person? So many questions to which I really have no answers or idea how to deal with things. Plus I will need to tell Jeff at some point because we still talk all the time and he still means a lot to me.
  Whether or not Jeff and I ever actually continue a relationship with each other is unknown but I know that we will always be there for each other no matter who we decide to date or what happens. I hope Jeff and I can stay really close and always get along well because I know I need him in my life. He is my go to person whenever I need something.

I have a feeling my life is about to start to get busy again, I should be going back to work soon, I am feeling more and more social, Lauren and I hang out more now, Talicia can drive so we go out more and I am going to date a bit. Of course don't forget that Jeff likes to come over a lot and same with my family. Maybe that's why I like having a boyfriend, so I have something to do HAHAHA I hope that not the reason. I think the reason is because I always want to be moving forward and I want someone to share all my boring downtime with. Can't do that with friends, everyone has their own life plans, you just need to find someone who has life plans similar to yours.