Time goes on...

I have been wrapped up in  my shit life for the past month I haven't even wanted to bother with the internet. Or people for that matter. I haven't talked to really anyone at all since the work incident happened, other than Jeff and Talicia of course oh and Lauren lol. My Mom comes over a lot and we talk and stuff, she helps me through everything. Anyways I think I may be going back to work soon, my issue is being handled by my local union president. He is so awesome, works so hard and I just can't put into words how grateful I am for my union and all the work they have done for me. Today at the NDP conference he pulled me aside and we talked about my work issue. He said he wants to get it dealt with and over by the end of the week, then he gives $1000 cash because he wants to help me out. I started crying, no one has ever done something like that for me, EVER. I am always helping everyone so it was so nice of him to do that. Now I can pay my rent and get some good groceries :)
In my other realm of confusion, Jeff and I are in such a weird relationship. Just when I think everything is going fine he seems to pull away a bit. Then he will do nice things like buy me coffee or tell me he dressed like a metalhead for me. So I know he cares and stuff but he still confuses me sometimes. Also last night we had sex, which I know we shouldn't have because usually I get too emotional and it will upset me later because we aren't dating. But for some reason this time I didn't get upset, I think I was just too horny and needed to get laid. It had been like 2 months since we did it so I am going to chalk it up to just needing to get it out of our system. I think he is more effected by the sex than I am. Also then this morning we found out someone stole his jacket from the hotel room. He is still mad and hasn't talked much all day. It worries me. After last night and now this I'm sure he is just not doing well but I don't know what to do to help or even if he wants the help. I think we will be ok because we always are but I still worry none the less. I really do love him and just want him to be happy so if in the end he doesn't want me, there is nothing I can do about it.
At the end of the day I just want life to make some sense and for everyone I am friends with to be happy. I am feeling better now that I know I still have a job and all that jazz but I am always worried about Jeff and how he is doing. Or how he feels about me. I'm a stupid girl sometimes. I just want to love and be loved and be happy and enjoy life and shit. Is that too much to ask?